Andariki hi. Thanks for your feedback on previous parts. Hope andaru healthy ga unnaru.So guys, we are not wrong, its not wrong to be us. Accept yourself because expecting others to accept you..
Idi e part summary anukondi,.
Adi chesina mosam gurinchi telisaka naku em cheyalo ardamkaledu. Asala okesari na mind blank ayindi. Deepak pelli kosam ani valla village ki vellanu. Adi , Nenu , Deepak unnam akkada. Aa roju night deepak adi ni vere room pampincharu. So ipudu nenu Deepak aa room lo unnam.
Me – ela unnaru
Deepak; fine. Nuvvu ela unnav
Me- bane unna. Happy married life
Deepak; Thanks but naku bayam ga undi
Me; enduku
Deepak; Naa gurinchi hide chesi okalani marriage cheskuntunanu. Okavela teliste naa situation enti. Tanani ela face cheyalo ardamkatle
Me; Hide cheyadam enti
Deepak; See nenu gay. aa visayam naku telusu . e visyam nenu accept cheyadaniki almost chala years pattindi. Neeku chppadaniki 1yr pattindi. But ippatiki nenu full ga accept cheyalenu. Ide first time nannu nenu vere vallaki exact ga project cheyadam. Chala mandini men ni meet ayya but andariki nenu bisexual ane cheppa. Nuvve first person to know me.
Naku men ante ekuva istam adi nenu accept chesta but evariki e visayam chepalenu. Ala ani pelli lekunda ekkuva days evarini namminchalenu. So pelli ki oppukunna . ammayi valladi konchem poor family, forced ga vere second marriage vadiki chestunte naaku visayam telisi nenu pelli cheukunta ani accept chesa. Madi different caste but intlo vallani oppincha. Tanani nenu eppati nundo love chestuna ani, caste difference valla oppukoru emo ani evariki cheppale ani oka story cheppa. Tanani save cheyadaniki. Nijaniki tanaki naku common friends tappa pedda parichayam ledu. Tanu studies inter lo apesindi. I mean apinchesaru. Tanu nenu oke school chadivam ante. Aa story ala sync ayindi. Tana gurinchi naa friends chepte elagyna save cheyali ani oka story cheppa. Tarvata mellaga chepochu le elano caste problem valla intlo oppukoru ani anukuna.
But bad luck.. Asalake naa pelli kosam baga try chestuna family oppesukunaru. So tana family kuda accept chesaru. Aa ammayi tho nenem matladale inka. But tanu reject chese position lo ledu. So ila fix ayipoyindi sudden ga
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Me; naku em ardam kaledu. Istam ledu antunav , bisexual antunav , gay antunav . asala enti e confusion
Deepak; naaku both genders meeda istam feelings untayi kani naa case lo men meeda feelings ekuva. Ala ani nenu bisexual kadu because naku just women ni chuste feelings ravu. Naku ippati varaku ardam ayina dani basis meeda 95 percent men meede interest naku, aa 5 percent kuda nannu nenu accept cheyaleka cheptunadi anuko. So pelli ayyaka kuda ee feelings untayi., but adi cheating avutadi anduke bayam ga undi.
Me- tanaki telidu ga . em kaadu le
Deppak; idi chinna visayam kadu, marriage societal pressure. But living together ante daniki chala undali.. Nenu oka mask tho tana mundu tiragali which cant be hidden for long time. Okavela teliste tanu ela react avutundi asala em anukuntundi ane pedda question mark naa kalla mundu undi. Anduke cheptuna ,. First know yourself and decide about everything.
Me- nenu gay kadu. Asla kadu. Edo time pass kosam chesa ante. Asala em ledu alantidi.
Deepak; ayite neeku adi ki difference enti mari
Me- ante adi
Deepak; see nuvvu accept cheyadam kastam but try to atleast explore yourself. Lekapote tarvata chala issue avutadi. Chala mandi ilane marriages cheskoni dating apps lonu social media lo fake accounts lonu ila men meeda vallaki unna interest ni project chestunaru. Marriage ayindi kids unnaru nenu gay ela avuta anukoku.. Gays ki pillau puttaru ani evaru chepparu. Gays are also men nothing different. Idi kevalam feelings and emotional thing, cinemas lo chupinchinatu female behaviour em undadu . even we can never identity gays .
So try to know what all this is yourself. Intaku minchi nenu cheppina ardam kadu, unless you know it yourself.
Me- naku chala confusion ga undi. Ee topic vadiledam inka pls
Deepak; ok
Deepak vellipoyaru, morning ayindi . Adi naa room ki vachadu malli.
Adi – e ra night andukena nannu bayataki pommanaru
Me- enduku
Adi- meeru iddaru make out cheskodanika. Siggu leda athani pelli ki vachi ila cheyadaniki
Me- alantidi em avaledu. Ayina neeku naa meeda inta care enduko
Adi- care ledu em ledu okavela meeru dorikite naa gurinchi cheptaremo ani bayam.
Me – first of all memes cheskole. And second thing nee gurinchi nenu eppudo marchipoya. Naku gurtupetukune lesson cheppav ga
Adi- veetiki em takkuva leedu.em antunadu Deepak
Me- emo tana marriage story chepadu
Adi- oh. Ayite pelli ayyaka kuda meeru matter naduputara
Me- naa gurinchi em anukuntunav. I will never enter his married life. Ayina naku aa interestkuda ledu. Tanu naa mentor matrame , antaku minchi idariki nuvvu anukune interest ledu.
Adi- em mentor ento, ayina naku enduku le. Mee paithyam meedi. Naa friend ga andariki telusu ikada nuvvu so ade naa bayam.
Me- inka gurtunda manam friends ani. Really great
Adi; nenu eppudu bane unna, nuvve senseless ga matladavu aa roju
Me- senseless aa
Adi – mari kakapote inkenti. Nuvvu edo timepass kosam chesav ga appudu . malli nannu cheating antaventi. Deepak tho kuda chesatvemo anukuna anduke aa idea icha
Me- ( manasulo adenti nene ga deepak ki cheppa timepass ani mari aa roju Adi chepindi kuda ade ga. Apudu naku kopam enduku vachindi asala )
Ala anukunna. Inka next day pelli ayuipoyindi . Nannu tana wife ki introduce chesaru. Tana name pallavi . chala manchidi anta. Family kosam studies vadili chala kastapaddaru anta. Ala pelli ayipoyindi nenu intiki vachesa.
Inka college opening ayindi. So vellipoyam but ave questions ala mind lo run avutunayi, vatiki answers kosam alochinchala career meeda focus petalo ardamkale.
Ala inka daily konta time night basic ga gay bi vati gurinchi chusanu.. Ala naku lgbt ante ento telisindi.Appudu naku telisindi ila nenu matrame lenu naala chala mandi untaru ila different sexual orientation unavallu ani telisindi..
Sexual orientation is different from gender ani telisndi, gender is physical , orientation is emotional ani telisindi. Ante manam physical ga mana organs batti male female and trans ani decide avutaru. Trans ante vallu by birth ala undaru, vallaolo hormonal changes valla surgery cheyinchi they get their gender. Asla trans ane gender e ledu, vallani kuda male or female lane manam gurtinchali but identification kosam trans men, trans women ani use chestaru manam danine special ga consider chesi vallani separate ga chustam. Respect them fir what they are ani ardamayindi. Surgery apudu main private orgams remove chestaru and continuous medication, counsellings undali . chala karchu avutadi and vallaki emotional disturbance untadi hormonal imbalance vallu but emotionally connected evaru undaru so vallu anduke ala public lo violent react avutaru kondaru. But ipudu evaru ala rude ga undatle. They try for works but evaru ivvaru so valle grps form ayyi ila begging chestaru vere way leka and sex workers kuda. But idi vallaki opportunity lekapodam valla ani ardam ayindi. Ila chala visayalu telisi transgender meeda respect perigindi.
Ika trans topic clear ayindi but naaku ala vere hormones effect lantidi em ledu. Naku women la ayyipovali ani ledu. Naku ilane undali ani so nenu trans kindaki ranu ani oka clarity vachindi.
Next biggest confusion between gay and bisexual. Generally andaru bisexual ane antaru gani gay ani chala takkuva mandi accept chestaru, ila one year ayindi, ala ani studies neglect cheyale. Free time lo matrame articles etc chadivanu .dating apps use chesa but adi unnecessary time waste ani ardam ayindi. Ika nenu e transition thoughts lo unnapudu article 377 ni cancel chestu supreme court judgement ichindi. Appati nundi dani kosam study chesa.
Ila nenu telusukuna dani batti nenu gay ani nakua rdama yindi, kani adi accept cheyadaniki naku chala days pattindi. Kani gay ante inferior ga untademo, style ga andarila bi ani chepte better emo anipinchedi but aa confusion chal weird ga undedi. So finally I identified myself as a gay. But acceptance anedi chala kastam ga anipinchindi.
Ila avutunna rojullo chala sarlu friends madya gay jokes, cinemalo gay objectiifcation lantivi chusi chala bayam badha vesedi. Mana society ki ilanti movies valla gays ante alane cheap untaru ane thought vellipoyindi . adi naku ippatiki sad anipinche visayam. ‘
Ipudu cheppinavi anni appudu naa feelings.,so e part lo mellaga na orientation kosam chesina study anni cheppanu. Ala nenu naa closet nundi bayata paddanu. Closet ante naku nenu vesukunna just time pass interest on men ane boundary.
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Thanks . See you in next part. Ee part lo mostly naa feelings and learnings e untayi next part lo malli title story ki vachestam. Naa Adi next part lo pedda twist ichadu adi naa story ki main turning point.